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Sunday, January 08, 2006

im fed up with the tagboard. and im not gonna get a for this blog currently.
cos i don nid comments for all that i have to sae.
by the way. im in an attitude and irritable mood. so pardon me for being rude and unkind.
cos i somehow feel that my life is screwed.

it has been long since i last hear you say you love me. and sometimes i wonder if u realli do.
you dunno how much i miss having you in my life. and all the wonderful times we had.
those days when we will look out for one another. after school. after training. after all the events we had in school. those days when you made me special and made me feel needed in your life. now that those days were gone as we live in another environment. the closeness we shared, the bond we had vanished as we grew older. and morbid thoughts filled my mind. will you be gone like how the others left. we swore to be there for one another. or maybe we didnt. cos it was something that need not be said. there were so many unsaid but i noe them in my heart. but do you? i never want to lose my number you. even if u are gone, no one else can replace you. and i don change friends like how i change clothes. that was wad u accused me of last time. you shud noe. no matter how many new friends i haf. you will still be the number one. i told you many times. you are not a spared tyre. it's jus that sometimes things jus appeared to you that way. and im utterly sorry for that.

another thing im not very happy about is ahem ahem larhh! but im okay alrd larhs. cos i understand you wont forgo a free dinner for the sake of me. even when i have absolute zlitch companion. if i had companion im sure i wont mind. but duno why all the pple die go where ydae. and the days b4 ydae. and almost eday since school reopens larhs. nvm. im learning to live in my own solitude. i realised i quite like spending time with myself. (thats provided i don feel unwanted) sitting down at a corner in a coffeehouse. drinking a cup of cafe latte. or even caramel frappacino. listening to music. looking at people. observing the way they carry themselves. and envying all the fun they are having. and how much i miss having my friends arnd. hmph. all the times we had sitting at esplanade rooftop laughing our heads off. and the mahjiong times. hmph hmph hmph. u cant find such friends in vjc and other colleges. maybe i shud be contented with all that i haf. it's not that i haben got ani frends. i haf got carol then! and gabriel li! and clara tan! and my teammates! they are like water i have stumbled across in a dessert. hahas. sounds funny.

and i thank you for keeping me company the whole of yesterday night. i really thank you for making me feel better. dinner was good i hope. jokes were funny. the breeze was nice. the sound of the river was soothing. the walk was so relaxing and nice. the coke was perfectly addictive. and your companion was superb. i hope i wasnt a bad company. it's nice to hear ur ambitions. to know wad u wan to do if u haf unlimited money. and share how u feel about certain issues. i noe i din talk much. cos i was paying my full attention to you. maybe dazed. but not tired. i have dreamy eyes. (KAPUI!) yes. we don noe wad it will be like in future. but wells. u noe i will always be interested in another day together. ha ha ha.

alrite. after i blog and accomplished some stuff. i felt more relieve and happy! im no longer moody alrd. ha ha ha. im weird. tada.

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